Naijapal Member Asks: "Who Took My Virginity? (Must Read)

I am a Young girl in my twenties. I grew up in Nigeria, Parents Nigerian but we reside in the states. I love my religion, I love God, a christian. I made a mistake, a big one. I really wanted to stay away from sex before marriage but something happened.
I was a virgin until recently till a dude from nowhere forced himself on me. went to hangout with him and his buddies and we got cozy and when I wanted him to stop he refused, dunno weather to call it rape or consensual but I know it was partly my fault but the thing is that i shed a little blood afterwards that he thought I lied being a virgin, claims he has been with a virgin and sill forced himself on me. Anyways, although i had been in a previous relationship whereby me and my ex played around each other times we got tempted but never got down to the last base and there has been a point where I noticed blood shed from other activities but he never entered me (Never did sure of it)
 Now I doubt who really took my virginity, the ex who never got to the last base or the other guy who did. I've hated myself ever since the incidence and i'm never going to trust men again. I Hated myself for disappointing God and breaking his rule. I hated sex ever since then and scared to and won't even dare the act again. was the most traumatic experience of my life. I know God has forgiven me but I want to  be able to forgive myself for going to a man's house all by myself. But I have always wondered who was my first?