Poster!!!!, may God forgive you oooo, that guy is a blind, he stands on Ikorodu road to beg every morning. To laugh at deformity is enormity - says Chief Awolowo.

Glory be to God for saving you, but there two things affecting you, namely: psychology and internal injury.
Solution 1. see a good pastor and a psychologist, 2. See a good doctor for total MRI and CT Scan to know if there is any internal injury.