Well my dear sister; Like you said.If they way said it is the way it's happened s
then just only ask God mercy and forgiveness i assured you freedom from anything that might have caused you
God said that such mistakes he count them as the days of ignorant
So far you realize that it's was a mistake and you've really blame urself for such ugly action
my dear be rest assured that you are free
If your mind still condemned you then look for a real man of God and share the story with him so that
he will pray with you. someone said you should tell your husband but it's not the best
i think a man of God is the best person you share it with.i mean a real man of God.not just so called man of God
I can refer you to one of them that i know and convince that they are.A man like Rev Chidi Okoroafor
A man like Pastor Afam Moses. a man like W F Kumuyi or Lazarus Moukachukwu
God bless you