Ruthie,  you are a gad damn bloody Fool..Anu mpama

Don't give up Bro...look for a little business,and keep yourself busy...Or rather, go for internship positions, in small companies...As your experience mounts, soo your increased chances of landing your dream Jobs..Moreover, don't contemplate suicide..After all, if you do, you stand a chance to loose..Hold your head high, because one day you would look back, and all this would be stories