weed changed my life in the
positive way, and how it matured
me. Please read this, i know its
kinda long, but its just that i have
so much to say, and honestly, i tried
keeping it as short as i could.
First things first, i am a 27 years,
and have been smoking M.J(marijuana)
for approximately 8 years,about
twice or less a week. Weed was
everything to me, whenever i felt
depressed, or had a hard time,i
would smoke some weed with my
friends, to relief the stress, and
anxiety. I've had very few bad
experiences, but they didnt really
bother me, as i researched about it
the first time it happened to me,
and found out that its a normal thing
to have bad anxiety on a few
occasions.
I have always been a shy person,
and weed changed my personality
dramatically, and have made some
really good friends by just smoking
with them which made me use
marijuana to help me socialise at
specific events, such as parties.
I have always believed that
cannabis is the ultimate drug, and
that all of its effects is for the
positive, and that it doesnt have any
bad side effects. I was obviously
deluded. any drug could have as
many positives as it can, however,
they would also have their
negatives, which should be
considered seriously. This could be
different for every individual, but i
will discuss how marijuana changed my life
""A few weeks ago, i had the most
strangest highs, or trips,i have ever
had in my entire period of smoking
weed. It started off as a normal
high. I went to my bed room, and
played some nice immortal technic music,
which is what i always do when i am
high. I had everthing ready, my
drink, my food, and my games
console switched on. I sat down on
my chair, and all of a sudden, my
loud speakers felt as if they were
next to my ear, everything looked
really strange and dreamy. I started
to panic, and thought the weed was
laced with T.M(tramadol), which i have had
before and was unpleasant.
However, the truth is that it wasnt
laced with T.M, as i gave the weed
the next day to a friend of mine to
see whether if he would get as
f*cked as i was. Anyways, thoughts
started racing, and i started
analyzing the sitatuation that i am
at. I thought i had gone crazy,
couldnt feel anything, including my
body,clothes, and i totally forgot
how to use any piece of device. It
was a nightmare. I started
hallucinating mildly, an example
would be that i would look at my
poster, and it would grow bigger. So
much happened to me at that time,
but i dont want to waste your time.
So,i'll just list out the things that
happened:
- couldnt feel my body at all
- forgot everything about myself,
who i was,what i did for a living
- forgot how to use devices such as
the computer
- wanted to go to hospital to just
force me to sleep
- felt as if that horrible feeling
wouldnt go away
- 3 hours felt like days
- felt as if the music i was listening
to was directed at me, and, how i
should live my life
- racing thoughts
- couldnt stop shaking
- felt emotionally empty,if you know
what i mean, emotionally dead,as if i
am a robot
- felt like i wasted my life, and let
every single person that i know
down
- i closed my eyes once, and i was
actually watching myself trying to
sleep from above
- started to feel as if the chair was
lifting,and was about to fall
down,but that wasnt what really
happened,so it must be a
hallucination
...and alot of crazy stuff that you
wouldnt imagine.
But anyways, i am not really
bummed about the horrifieng
experience, as i now understand
what happened was just a massive
panic attack, however, that trip
taught me a lesson. You, reader,
may not fully understand what i am
getting at,but, its worth a shot, as
there might be people out there
that have had the same experience
that i had.
It also made me more focused on my
future, and how hard i have to work
in order to have a good career. It
made me realise that its time to
move on, and be serious about life,
which cannot be taken lightly. The
experience also made me realise
the people that care about me, and
how i should show the love, and
care back,when i tryd to check my life to no how far i have gon wt life ,i realized i have achived almost everything i had thought of,
i know its a bit long,and may not make sense, but, i
tried to deliver my experience at
least
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