“ I Married My Husband So People Could Stop Calling Me An Evil Mistress" Says Ese Walter

Date: 01-09-2016 1:45 pm (8 years ago) | Author: CLARA JANCITA
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- at 1-09-2016 01:45 PM (8 years ago)
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On her IG page this morning, Ese Walter said she married OAP Benny Ark, just to shut people's mouth up. She revealed that she didn't love him when they got married two and a half years ago and had issues trusting him so many months after marriage. She says she has gotten some help and is currently dealing with all the issues. She shared the photo above and wrote;
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"When I agreed to marry him two and a half years ago, I didn't love him. Heck I didn't love my own self. I just needed a change of story. I needed to stop being the girl everyone called an evil mistress and "graduate" to somebody's Mrs. I thought the Mrs title was going to save my ass and bring me some sort of redemption. I was wrong.
Calling what happened next a disaster is putting it mildly. Weeks into living together brought out the worse in both of us. I thought I made a mistake. I didn't trust him so why was I married to him. We would argue over everything and I convinced myself I wanted out despite the baby on the way. In therapy I was able to face my own demons for the first time. I realized it was never about him or the other guys I dated. I was always looking for a fix outside of myself. I was always needing someone to take away the pain and save my lonely self. I was looking for what I wasn't because I thought that could heal me.

Months of living outside my comfort zone and going where the pain was brought me face to face with my demons that saved me. I didn't trust him because I didn't trust me. I couldn't love him because I had no love to give. I was always blaming him because it was easier to project than take responsibility. As I started to evolve and see my own self, I was able to see him for the first time. As I started loving myself, I was able to love him and now as I learn to trust myself, I am trusting him, one day at a time. As I lay beside him last night I remembered a quote I read sometime ago. I don't remember who said it but it read, "when you love the one you got, the one you got becomes the one you love." When I stopped trying to change him and let him be, I was able to give room for his own evolving. He ain't perfect. Who wants perfect anyways? I am learning that all is as it should be in the Universe, there are no mistakes only feedback. The Universe brought the one I needed for my evolving and I am thankful. GRATITUDE is my dominant feeling this morning. If you are struggling with the one you love, know that the world's standard of love is phyuked up. Vibrate higher and love because of love.


Posted: at 1-09-2016 01:45 PM (8 years ago) | Hero
- senatordee01 at 1-09-2016 01:48 PM (8 years ago)
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don't mind what people are saying.  life goes on
Posted: at 1-09-2016 01:48 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- diutopep at 1-09-2016 01:49 PM (8 years ago)
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Na Ur OWN CUP OF OGI....
Posted: at 1-09-2016 01:49 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- Mynameis1 at 1-09-2016 02:24 PM (8 years ago)
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You can't satisfy others and displease your self...
Posted: at 1-09-2016 02:24 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- gogoman at 1-09-2016 02:31 PM (8 years ago)
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ok i hear u
Posted: at 1-09-2016 02:31 PM (8 years ago) | Grande Master
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- kison at 1-09-2016 02:32 PM (8 years ago)
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 Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh? Huh?
Posted: at 1-09-2016 02:32 PM (8 years ago) | Hero
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- Slimchery at 1-09-2016 02:41 PM (8 years ago)
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SO YOU MARRIDE YOU HUSBAND NOT BECAUSE OF LOVE?
Posted: at 1-09-2016 02:41 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- Lilycedar2 at 1-09-2016 03:00 PM (8 years ago)
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OK
Posted: at 1-09-2016 03:00 PM (8 years ago) | Upcoming
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- emytex74 at 1-09-2016 03:35 PM (8 years ago)
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 Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Roll Eyes Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked Shocked
Posted: at 1-09-2016 03:35 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- winace at 1-09-2016 03:44 PM (8 years ago)
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We din hear ESE. I don't know why pple like to draw attention yo themselves unnecessarily
Posted: at 1-09-2016 03:44 PM (8 years ago) | Addicted Hero
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- ruthie at 1-09-2016 04:22 PM (8 years ago)
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super story
Posted: at 1-09-2016 04:22 PM (8 years ago) | Hero
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- morgan1 at 1-09-2016 04:33 PM (8 years ago)
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Why ar u listening to people???
Posted: at 1-09-2016 04:33 PM (8 years ago) | Hero
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- EDDYPRINCE at 1-09-2016 06:02 PM (8 years ago)
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HEARD
Posted: at 1-09-2016 06:02 PM (8 years ago) | Addicted Hero
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- dickieponga at 1-09-2016 07:24 PM (8 years ago)
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So you married just to get married not for love.
Am not surprised, a lot of women do it these days.
So na d money entice u..
Posted: at 1-09-2016 07:24 PM (8 years ago) | Hero
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- sandler at 1-09-2016 09:12 PM (8 years ago)
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WASTED GENERATION
Posted: at 1-09-2016 09:12 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- anitajoseph at 1-09-2016 09:48 PM (8 years ago)
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Wow
Am glad that you found happiness in your husband at last
Posted: at 1-09-2016 09:48 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- tommy70 at 1-09-2016 10:25 PM (8 years ago)
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PEOPLE MUST TALK.JUST BELIEVE IN URSELF
Posted: at 1-09-2016 10:25 PM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- okatee at 2-09-2016 12:09 AM (8 years ago)
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WHO U EPP, TELL DAT TO D GHOST
Posted: at 2-09-2016 12:09 AM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- GermoDon at 2-09-2016 05:27 AM (8 years ago)
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even nw u dnt luv urself
Posted: at 2-09-2016 05:27 AM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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- tweetynene at 2-09-2016 08:19 AM (8 years ago)
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yeye...... park well joor
Posted: at 2-09-2016 08:19 AM (8 years ago) | Gistmaniac
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