16 year old: How Do I Deal With This? (Page 3)

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I am a christian, and believe sex belongs to marriage. I have a beautiful girlfriend that I love. We're both 16. She's much more liberal than me, and about a week ago she wanted us to sleep together. She even got on the pill for me. Now, I told her I didn't want to take her virginity, which made her really upset, and we had a big argument. We ended up doing just oral with each other. She told me that since I didn't want to sleep with her, she'd do it with someone else just to get it over with. This got me very upset, but I thought it was just something she was saying.

Right after we were at a party for her family in another town, where she got really drunk (I don't drink at all)  Her cousin offered to give us a ride home. In the car, she kept telling him about how I didn't want to have sex with her because of my beliefs, and that she'd just have to get it over with. He asked her if she wanted to do it with him, and she said why not. Now the guy is much older than us, and married, so I thought he was joking. He stopped the car in a desolate parking lot and told me that he'd sleep with her to help us get started, and that it had to be a secret. My girlfriend told me it would be just sex to get it over with, and that we'd still be together. At the time I was too shocked and hurt to even come with many protests. So basically he lowered the front seat for her, and undressed her lower regions. He then took out his penis, and tried to get inside her. He kept pushing for like 5 minutes. It really hurt her, and she was crying. Finally her hymen broke and he was inside her. She was just lying there while her cousin slowly moved around in her honeypot. He kept soothing her and doing slow strokes. I felt like my hear was gonna burst. I never thought it would come to this. After some thrusts in her he came and pulled out. She was bleeding all over the front seat, and he put a shirt under her bottom. He thanked her for the sex, and said it had been really good and that she was very tight etc. It had only hurt for her, but he wanted to do it again and told her it would feel better. After waiting a few minutes, he  got on top of her again. He moved back and fourth in her for like half an hour this time, and all I could hear was her moaning and his grunts of pleasure. The whole inside of the car smelled like sex, and rocked back and fourth as I sat there stunned. She was resting her legs on his shoulders, and even making out with him from time to time,  He finished with thrusting in her really hard as he came. Afterwards when she got out to pee, he kept bragging of how tight she had been and how I had missed out. He told me he had opened her up for me, and apologized for "making her cunny a little fishy" When she came back she protested that most of it had come out as she peed. He then drove me to my house, and I guess let off my girlfriend soon after. She told me nothing more happened, but that she was really sore and that her honeypot had gotten badly bruised.

All I can think of is what happened that night. I'm so jealous I'm about to die, and really wish I was the one to get her virginity. She keeps telling me it was just sex since
I didn't want to do it with her, and that she loves me. She still want us to sleep together, but all I can think of is him on top of her. That guy must be making fun of me now. I mean he really enjoyed it, and got to pop her cherry while I was watching. He got to shoot his semen inside her since she was on the pill. It couldn't have been more humiliating.  I can never get what he had, although I love my girlfriend. How could he do this to me and his own wife? I just wish it never had happened. My complexes are so big right now. What should I do?? How do I get over this? I feel like such an idiot for not using my chances. Sad I don't want ruin the marriage by telling. My girlfriend claims I can sleep with her now since she's no longer a virgin, and that she did it for me. I don't know who I'm most angry at, her or that guy.