A FOOL AT FORTY? (Page 2)

Today April 9, 2012, I clock 40 years of age. I am thankful to God for everything but my heart is heavy because I seem to have failed so far!
Currently on a monthly salary of =N=440,000 and having worked in paid employments for eight years, I have no house or land of my own, I have a ramshackle looking five years old tokunbo car and a total investment and savings less than =N=200,000 with indebtedness to the tune of a million naira!
I am not bewitched or under a spell (I believe) but this failure stems from wrong decisions, unhealthy empathy and sentiments.
So far, I have lost about =N=7 million naira in monies invested in the businesses of family members and loan granted to friends to solve their financial problems. These monies are not coming back, they are completely lost! I do not drink or womanise but sometimes wish I do because at least I would have known the bottomless pit that sang my money.
I have survived 3 mass sack of staff in the banking industry and I am just wondering what life will look like if eventually I am also asked to go home, moreso, with my wife still struggling in her high risk business venture with a networth of =N=1 million. This is my second attempt at setting her up.
I am the eldest in the family of seven (from both sides of my two fathers). 3 members of these families are still in the higher institution and this responsibility is on me. I have 3 kids of my own with the eldest in primary 2. I pay a rent of =N=400,000 annually and hope I and my family member remain in sound health so that I don’t have to incur any huge health expense.
All said and done, I am determined to succeed in this life. Analyse, advice and judge me!