My Husband is a beast Help

OUR HONEYMOON WAS HELL: MY HUSBAND RAPES ME VIOLENTLY  

The honeymoon period ended the day after we were married,six months from when we first
met. After a little
argument, John grabbed me by the waist and lifted me
up against the wall.
He grabbed my hands and bent them backward, breaking one of my fingers. I was in shock. I was stunned. I was in serious pains.
A few hours after the incident,He broke into tears and told me how sorry he was. I loved him so much, so I believed him when
he said it wouldn’t happen again. But life became hell after  

For the next two months the abuse was nonstop. He kept me in a constant state
of terror. I’m not a drinker, but he’d toss a bottle of beer in my
face and say drink. He’d punch me in the stomach or kick me in
the thigh if I didn’t. I started walking on tiptoes around him,
fearful of everything I’d say and do. But it didn’t matter; the
abuse continued. He dislocated my shoulder several times.
He’d lift me up by the ankles and bang my head against the
floor in the living room. A part of me
wanted to leave, but another part of me hesitated.

Somehow I felt I was partially responsible
for the abuse. If I hadn’t made a particular comment or if I had just sipped the alcohol everything would have been
OK.
And for the first few months he was apologetic after the
beatings.
He’d say he felt very bad and that he didn’t mean to hit me
so hard. He’d actually cry sometimes and show such remorse that I’d forget my own pain. He’d become romantic and sweet,
and I’d fall in love with him all over again.
I started to isolate
myself from friends and family. I didn’t want them to know
about the violence.
I put on a happy face with my two kids and tried to act like things were fine. They knew
about the violence but didn’t know the severity.
When my mom wanted to see me, I’d lie, saying I was busy. I didn’t want her to see my bruises. I was
embarrassed. Sadly, the abuse worsened.
The rapes began about two months after we were married.  




I was dressing for work when he came out of the shower and
asked me where I was going. He didn’t wait for my answer. He threw me on the bed, sat on my stomach, pinned my arms
up beside my head and ripped off my clothes.
"If you want sex,
wait until I get home tonight" I
said. You’ll do it when I want, and how I want, was his response.
It got worse after that. He would tie me up and put foreign objects such as necks of beer bottles into my v*g*na.    

Five months into the marriage I
endured beating after beating. While most of the assaults
were done when my children weren’t home, I was worried
that they might step in and try to protect
me. If they did, they might get beaten, too. I began plotting
our escape, but it was difficult. He had begun making threatening comments: You can never get
far enough away from me. I will always find you. If I can’t have
you, no one will.
I felt trapped. How I left? He had disappeared for three days. I didn’t know
where he was. I thought he had been in an accident. I
called his phone; he would answer but not say anything. He arrived home on the third night at about 1a.m. and immediately started screaming at me that
he didn’t appreciate me trying to track him down.
We were in the sitting room and he grabbed the land-phone
receiver and began
to beat me in the face with it. His eyes were red and flashing like I’d never seen before. I ran to the bedroom, and he was right behind me. He picked me up over his head and threw me across the room twice. I broke my tailbone in the second fall.
My 6-year-old daughter woke up.
She must have heard
something and came to see what was
happening.
She just stood there, stunned. He looked at her and got scared for some reason. He
went into the bedroom and pack his
things. I found my phone,fighting the pain from the broken bone, limped to the
living room, I then called my father who took me away from
the house. Since then I have not set my eyes on John.

I KIP ASKING THIS QUESTION WHY ARE SOME MEN WICKED?  

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Posted: at 16-08-2012 02:34 PM (12 years ago) | Gistmaniac

REALLY REALLY TERRIBLE

Posted: at 16-08-2012 02:43 PM (12 years ago) | Upcoming

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Posted: at 16-08-2012 03:03 PM (12 years ago) | Addicted Hero

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Posted: at 16-08-2012 03:34 PM (12 years ago) | Gistmaniac

but  y dnt some men hav conscience? people can fake things nd due to d girl is blinded by love she mite nt realli tak it serious d lil one she see coming

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Posted: at 16-08-2012 03:40 PM (12 years ago) | Gistmaniac

Marriage must be enjoyed not endured.  I pray ur mind could be taken away from him. Forget that love first,  Are your kids with you?  Get a way to carry ur kids otherwise they will suffer more in dia father's hands.  .  Thank God u were able to call ur father this time, u may have ended up like Skye Bank Staff dat was killed by her husband and her memory is almost fading out in d minds of ppl.  Some ppl (men/women) are beast in human clothings

Posted: at 17-08-2012 10:31 AM (12 years ago) | Hero

Thank God u hv a job, ur empowered.  Move on life continues.  Congratulations, u survive it

Posted: at 17-08-2012 10:36 AM (12 years ago) | Hero

  this is very sad but you should have noticed this behaviours of his before getting into the marriage................. im very sorry  

Posted: at 17-08-2012 01:07 PM (12 years ago) | Gistmaniac