when i was arround 20 i was such a dumb girl too,.... it took me a lot of energie and a lot of time to come away from him but after 5 years i managed it - I think i stayed with him for so long because i met him when i was a kid and he was the only love in my life
now some years later no one can ever touch me in a way i dont like it I learnd to say: NO
and i learned to give myself more respect
Any girl which is in such a situation should try to get out of it thats not life
When I was younger, I used to be so scared of men and sex it was not even funny. I saw what my elder sister was going throuh with men and I told myself I will never be in that situation. jump from men to men, letting them treat you any how. I kept my head in the books. High school was even worst....I was so scared of having rumors go around about me that I hardly had the type of social young people usually have. I didn't have sex until I was 22 yrs old b/c I was scared of being used and called a how (wh*re...etc). Then I met a man...I guess I was tired of being scared. I fell in love fast and hard. He treating so good in the beginning. I trusted him with everything and trust does not come easy for me. If you knew me, you would know exactly what I'm talking about. Anyway, we had sex....after a few weeks, he started ignoring me, treating me like crap, yelling at me cuz I didn't call him, not picking up the phone when I did. I stayed b/c I refuse to believe that a man that I love, that I made love to, that was my first.... only wanted sex. I truly believed he cared about. Before we had, I wanted to break up so my times, because I am a difficult person and I would start arguments over stupid things and I had never been in a r/ship so everything was all new to me, and the feeling I was having for him was so strange. I would miss him when I wasn't with him, we would be on the phone but I wouldn’t talk and then we’ll hang up and I would wonder what he doing now and I wanted to talk to him. I was so shy around him but I wanted to be with him all the time. I didn't want to believe that a man I felt this strongly for would want to hurt me. Would anybody call me stupid for being with this man, chasing him around?? I was in love and that is what love make you do, put up with anything......
i feel u.am also scared of relationship,which is why hv been single for two yrs now.lik u hv said love can make u do and put up wit anythin ,and tht's true. i hv hrd so many girl's stories and it's shockin.
Posted: at 9-08-2008 01:51 AM (16 years ago) | Hero |
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