life is such a bitch sometimes (Page 2)

some months ago i met the only guy that really made me happy but my happiness did not last more than 1month.he´s nigerian but lived 4 a long time in Europe,that is how he got 2 the country where i am.after short time he told me he was married.maybe  u ppl know how it is when u r in a foreign country and need papers,that is why most of nigerians get married just 4 papers.but he made the mistake of sleeping with her,once in a while :)that was happenning before coming here and since then there is nothing between them. i was ok with that knowing that it wasn´t a real marriage based on love.knowing they will divorce.after a while we got the news that she was pregnant but she really did not know who´s the father of the baby,him or the other guy she´s phyuking.i tried 2 live my life and build a relationship based on true  feelings 4 each other,hoping and wishing a future together but all my dreams have ruined 3 days ago when she delivered.as if it wasn´t enough that he is the father,now he is the father of twins,both girls. sad is not the right word 2express the way i feel.for 3 good days i keep crying,asking why is this happening 2 me?!i did not expect of it. i cannot pretend that they don´t exist even if they are not living or are 2gether anymore.am not heartless not 2 think about those 2 girls that don´t have any blame coz their parents are stupid. i never been in this situation in my life.my world is falling appart,i cannot think of anything else.even if i know we can have a future 2gether he will always have another family somewhere else. am not jealous or selfish  but what is happening really hurts me.am not like this bcoz of that lady ,but because of the girls.i cannot build my happiness on other ppl unhappiness.even if is not me the one that broke them up i feel guilty if the girls will not have their father close. i don´t know what 2 do.though it hurts me right now i love him 2much 2 give up on us.    :'(